Embracing My Calling

John 8:32

“Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” 

My Father. I love you and I worship you. Thank-you for your love in my life. I truly feel content -I have your peace in my heart like I’ve not felt before. 

Caroline my daughter, you are Mine:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

Father, I’m in such awe of you. I sense such a love inviting me forward to embrace your calling in my life. I feel valued and loved by you, and because of this I know it deep down in my heart. I have a sense of being secure in a strong foundation in the core of who I am. You are my strong foundation and internally I embrace your calling in my life, which is to become a pastor. A little part of me feels like I should avoid this word because its too much of an important job for me to do, but I have such a deep sense of your love that I can’t help but embrace it. I’m just in awe of you Father.. thank-you. …Father, you really do want me to be a pastor?

I do, but it’s up to you. Do you want to become a pastor?

Father, there’s no doubt in my heart that I’d love to be a pastor. I just need to step out of the old way of thinking and step into the new. I am a new creation in Christ, so please lead me forward. I’m beginning to believe Father that through you all things are possible, and that I can really do what you want me to do. If you’re calling me forward, which I know you are, then I’m coming..

I love you Caroline and I have surly called you, don’t doubt that.

Okay. No more doubting in Jesus name! I’m walking forward, believing and embracing your calling in my life. Thank-you Lord for your grace and your mercy; for calling me out from what has been and into your great plan for me. I ask that this transition can be now, and I’m going to keep on knocking on this door until you open it. 

Caroline my daughter, we are doing this together; you are not alone.

Thank-you Jesus. I know this is true.. 😭 thank-you..

Mathew 7:7,8

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”

Reflection:

I woke up last night at 3:44, 5:44, and in the morning I glanced at the time and saw 7:44. I had such a great time leading last night! Often when I thought of being on stage I’d think of myself being alone. Physically I was the only one on stage but this wasn’t the feeling I had. I felt like I was part of the group of leaders and that we were doing this together. I couldn’t help but chuckle a few times.. Later though I felt like I had missed an opportunity to volunteer again and I knew it the second it passed. Internally though I felt like I was almost ready to say yes, and if there would have been a few more moments to think about it, I would have, and I was so disappointed that this opportunity passed. In my life I’ve always been like this though.. I always need a bit of time to process new information, though sometimes I’m spontaneous. I just need to be open to lead anytime:) This afternoon I’m going to visit my mom. She’s had a bad cold but otherwise she’s fine! Blessings!!