Luke 7:50, “Jesus said to the woman, “Your faith has saved you; go in peace.”
My daughter come, you are Mine. I am near.
Jesus, I can see that I’m anointing our conversation with tears that never seem to end.
My faithful daughter, I am near -it’s time to rest.
Okay. I feel like I’ve said all I’ve needed to say, like the well of words within me has dried up.
I am near my daughter, always.
Reflection:
This morning my verse of study was John 12:3, “Then Mary took about a pint of pure nard, an expensive perfume; she poured it on Jesus’ feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.” It took me to Luke 7:36-50, the story of a woman who had such a deep love for Jesus because of how much he had forgiven her for. The way I can identify with her is how deeply I needed to be filled with the value that Jesus has for us, with his love. His love restores the broken-hearted and he has restored mine. Another thing that made me cry is when Jesus told Simon he has something to tell him (to help him understand something better, to gain a deeper insight). Jesus has often told me this, and I think it speaks of such a deep love when our creator wants to have a conversation with us. I’m so deeply thankful for how the Lord has saved me in so many ways. When I think about how long this journey has been and where the Lord is taking me, there’s so much value to God’s plans for me that I can never stop walking this path, no matter how much longer it will take until I can take the next step..
In Luke 8 Jesus is talking in parables, which has become so familiar with me over the past years. I still think I miss a lot of what the Lord desires for me to know, but as I keep pursuing him, I know that I’ll learn to hear his voice better. Verse 9,10, “His disciples asked him what this parable meant. He said, “The knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of God has been given to you, but to others I speak in parables, so that, “‘though seeing, they may not see; though hearing, they may not understand.'” Then Jesus explains the parable. I think even the disciples didn’t always understand what Jesus was saying in the parables. I think that the hidden treasures inside Jesus’ parables cause us to pursue the Lord in order to be able to find them, and I think the Holy Spirit is the one who helps us find them. Those who don’t want to hear what he has to say, they won’t pursue him for these truths, and therefore they will be hidden from them because of it.
The Lord gave me a dream last night which represents that he will soon lead me into being able to take the next step in my faith walk with him. He needs to birth something in me in order for me to do what he’s asking me to do: I was in a very nice house. Someone was going to become pregnant. Then I had something in front of me like a piece of cloth that when I was ready, I’d pour water on it for it to soak up the water. I knew this represented pregnancy for me, so I took a deep breath, internalizing what this meant for me, and said something like, “okay, here goes!” And I poured the water on it, causing it to grow as it absorbed all the water. When I had made it known that I was going to become pregnant, someone who’s name means “Messenger of God” had sent me two packages in the mail that were right in front of me. One was on top of the other; the one on top, the recipe was already put together and was a citric flavoured vanilla cake mix, and the other was in a clear plastic bag and was put together like a gift display; I saw three, 2inch thick, vanilla round cakes, separate inside the plastic bag, sliced lengthwise so that when it was put together, it would form one 3 teared cake. Everything was already baked so it wouldn’t be a lot of work to put together. All that was needed was “icing on the cake!” What I had imagined in my dream to go between the layers of cake was a creamy icing mixture, which I could really enjoy right now!! I think I saw the word “creamy” in my dream.
Last week I had a quick dream where I was talking to my son Lucas. I asked him, “why would I ever want to take something away from you?” I’ve been thinking about what this represents and I think that as a parent, if I don’t follow Jesus where he’s leading me, that’s when I take away from my children. When I’m walking more in the fullness of who God has made me to be and to do, my children will be influenced by that, very much. And I think that when we open ourselves up to God’s leading, God will include our children in our walk -they will be touched by God through our influence and through what they see and hear in our walk with him. How we relate to God will effect how we relate to them and to each other. Everything the Lord wants for us as we grow up in him, he also wants for our children so that they can also grow up in him. When we show our children and teach them how to walk with the Lord everyday and grow an intimate love relationship with him, they will be kingdom minded and be able to be used by God as they step out into the world and begin their own journey with him. Having said all of that and because I’m just beginning to see and learn all of these things, my own children don’t yet know about this hidden way of walking intimately with the Lord where he leads us to find the hidden treasure as we know him more. Intimacy with Jesus changes us from the inside to be more like him; it purifies our heart so that we can come boldly before Jesus in his throne room in heaven. Ask and you will receive; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Many blessings and love to you…